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| HOLY MOLY MOTHER OF PEARL |
So it's Wednesday afternoon and I'm stuck inside. Though I'm thankful of that these days..It's literally 106 out there but it FEELS like 115! I can promise you that this has convinced me to act straight cause if hell is hotter than this..I don't think I feel like going there, thank you very much!
I'm writing to you (the two that will inadvertently read this..and I'm still trying to decide if my roommate counts) to explain to whomever my problems. Since 9 times out of 10 I have trouble expressing myself and since 10 times out of 9 I make the wrong decisions when it comes to trusting people (daddy issues) I need some help.
Or I need help figuring out why my goal in life is to let people run all over me.
Basically..I have no idea what I am going to write about.
Maybe my daily motivational quote will help us out?
"Sometimes..What you have to do is go back to where you started and see everything in a different way or perception" - Grenville Kleiser
How appropriate..Really..I'm being serious..Just last week I lost one what I thought to be great friend and almost lost a truly great.
One, let's just call them Bob, had been reeling me in for quite a long time. Telling me everything that a person wants to hear..How great I am..How great I do things..How much better of a person I had made them..Blah Blah Blah..Turns out..Bunch of BS! Used me up till I was nearly dry and in turn almost got me to loose the true good friend!
If I apply that quote to my life right now..I would go back..Look at what the situation was and I know even then I wouldn't have listened to my gut..cause who DOESN'T like to feel good about themselves..but what I would done was listened to my friends. I have learned some really great life lessons in the past 3 years and I can now just add this one to the list.
Bottom line is..if you're a helper..if you like to 'fix' people..just watch out..listen to the people who know you best cause they can see you and can and will evaluate the situation with a level head..whereas we won't..We can only see what the wolf has pulled over our eyes.
Fool me once, shame on you..Fool me twice, shame on ME.
I have no more chances left..I have to lead with my head..NOT with my heart!
